Two weeks ago I made the decision to stop. Stop doing and just be for a bit. So I’m winding down my agency, Copper.
For the last 12 years I’ve focused on building something. I’ve not always known what it was I was building, but it has occupied some part of my conscious mind for every hour of those 12 years. It’s taught me a heck of a lot but I think the biggest lesson is probably the one I’m about to learn now that it’s stopped.
Reflecting on the past 12 years I can quite confidently say we’ve done some incredible work. We have raised millions of pounds for charities, with each pound going toward helping make the world better. From healthcare to alleviating poverty and human rights and the environment. So there’s some comfort in knowing there are a heck of a lot of people who have been helped by our work.
“I’m pretty tired. I think I’ll go home now.”Forrest Gump
But I’m tired, and when I’m tired I don’t work as well as I know I can and that has become increasingly more obvious and frustrating. The last two years have brought challenges in all shapes and sizes both professionally and personally. But they’ve all helped shape me as a person. Professionally I’ve tried different approaches to try and really grow the business and they’ve been hit and miss. As is to be expected. But thankfully mostly hit. We’re currently doing more interesting and more effective work than we have before, and more of it and that’s helped build a solid reputation. We’ve grown year on year with our biggest increase over the last year. So I’m not closing it due to ‘failing’. In some ways it might have been easier if it had have crashed, although the decision would then have been taken out of my hands.
This was a decision based on needing to change to get some perspective and balance. To give me time to rest my brain, restore and reboot. I think sometimes big changes can be helpful, and this is probably one of my biggest. But with that comes all kind of scariness.
At the moment I don’t know what’s next after the break and I’m not sure how long the break will be. But I do recognise the fortunate situation I’m in to be able to take some time off and can only hope that with rest comes clarity.